"She kept her figure and I didn't—no wonder she gets more attention."
How it sounds in your head: Even in our seventies, the thin ones still get noticed first, complimented more, treated better. Decades of diets, hormones, medications, and gravity did their work on me while she still looks elegant. My body is evidence I didn't try hard enough.
"For the LORD does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
-- 1 Samuel 16:7Enemy perpetuating the lifelong lie that your value is measured in inches and pounds, blinding you to being the temple of the Holy Spirit.
You've watched for seventy years as thinner women received preferential treatment, better service, more compliments. Your body has changed dramatically while hers seems preserved, and the world's response confirms the hierarchy.
Hagar was the cast-off Egyptian slave, used and discarded, running into the wilderness alone and invisible. God saw her when no one else did and she named Him El Roi—the God Who Sees Me—instant recognition that she was SEEN, KNOWN, and VALUED when the world made her invisible.
I REFUSE the lie that my body size determines my value or God's attention toward me. IT IS WRITTEN that the Lord does not see as man sees—He looks at the heart, and mine is His dwelling place. I am the temple of the Holy Spirit, crowned with glory and honor, lacking NO good thing. IT IS WRITTEN that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and that includes this body at this age. The Father's eyes are on me constantly, His thoughts toward me outnumber the sand, and His delight has nothing to do with measurements. I am El Roi's BELOVED—fully seen, fully known, fully cherished.
The Father isn't waiting for you to look different to pour out attention—He's gazing at you RIGHT NOW with delight, running toward you with the robe that covers every insecurity, throwing a party not because you're thin but because you're His. Like Hagar invisible in the wilderness, He sees you when the world doesn't, and His seeing is the only measurement that matters.