"My mom considered abortion. I almost didn't exist. I barely made it here."
How it sounds in your head: She told someone once she 'wasn't sure what to do' when she found out. That means she thought about NOT having me. I'm only here because she couldn't go through with it. I'm alive by default, not by desire.
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations."
-- Jeremiah 1:5Trauma passed through the womb; spiritual attack targeting destiny before birth; enemy trying to retroactively steal identity through 'what almost happened.'
She overheard a conversation or found old journals expressing her mother's fear and confusion during pregnancy. The knowledge that abortion was even CONSIDERED feels like proof she wasn't truly wanted—just the 'lesser evil' choice.
Pharaoh decreed ALL Hebrew boys be murdered at birth—Moses' parents HID him, then put him in a river in a basket (risking death). Yet God positioned him in Pharaoh's own palace, turned enemy's daughter into protector—destiny cannot be drowned.
I REFUSE the lie that I almost didn't exist or barely made it here. IT IS WRITTEN that before I was formed in the womb, God knew me and sanctified me—His YES was louder than any human's maybe. My mother's fears didn't cancel God's plans; He was FORMING me with purpose while she was deciding. IT IS WRITTEN that when father and mother forsake, the LORD takes me up—I am HELD by hands that never wavered. The BARAK blessing that brought Isaac through barrenness brought ME through doubt. I didn't barely make it—I ARRIVED ON SCHEDULE for divine purpose. I am not here by default; I am here by DECREE.
The Father is running toward you declaring, 'I was knitting you together with PURPOSE while everyone else was questioning—you were never in danger in MY plan.' He sanctified you before breath, ordained you before doubt could touch you.