"I'm losing this battle because the attacks keep coming despite my prayers."
How it sounds in your head: You've prayed the same prayers for decades. If God was going to answer, wouldn't He have done it by now? The fact that you're still dealing with this at 90+ proves prayer doesn't work. Maybe God just isn't listening to you anymore.
"For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world—our faith."
-- 1 John 5:4Religious teaching that unanswered prayer equals God's rejection or your insufficient faith.
Decades of praying about the same issues without visible change feels like proof of failure. At this age, you wonder if God has simply moved on to younger believers.
Zechariah prayed for a son for DECADES with no answer, into old age when it was naturally impossible. The angel said 'your prayer is heard'—past tense, it had ALWAYS been heard—and gave him John the Baptist instantly at age well past fathering years.
I REFUSE the lie that ongoing attacks mean I'm losing. IT IS WRITTEN that I have ALREADY overcome the world through faith—victory is past tense, finished, done. The enemy's attacks are desperate noise from a defeated foe. My prayers are ALL heard and treasured in heaven's bowls. IT IS WRITTEN that no weapon formed against me shall prosper. I am covered by the BARAK blessing—protected by covenant, not by my prayer performance. The cross settled EVERY battle before I ever fought one.
The Father doesn't measure victory by whether attacks stop—He measures it by what Jesus finished. You're not losing; you're watching a defeated enemy thrash in his final moments, and the Father is whispering 'Just wait, beloved, I've been preparing your answer since before you prayed.'