"I shouldn't ask God for healing when so many others are suffering worse than me."
How it sounds in your head: There are children with cancer. Young mothers dying. So many people in worse situations. Who am I to ask for healing at 86 when I've lived a full life? My needs should be at the bottom of the list. It feels selfish to ask.
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us."
-- Ephesians 3:20Religion + trauma teaching scarcity mentality about God's resources; false humility rooted in unworthiness.
A lifetime of putting herself last, especially as a woman conditioned to prioritize others. She genuinely believes God's healing power is limited and should be rationed to more 'deserving' cases, which feels like humility but is actually calling God small.
Peter's mother-in-law had a fever. Not cancer, not paralysis—a FEVER. Jesus healed her immediately, then that SAME EVENING healed 'all who were sick'—entire crowds, every disease. He didn't say 'pick the worst cases.' He healed her common fever AND the multitudes. No rationing.
I REFUSE the lie that God's healing power is in short supply and others are more deserving. IT IS WRITTEN that He does EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY above all we ask—there is NO shortage in heaven. Jesus healed Peter's mother-in-law's simple fever AND entire crowds the same day; my asking doesn't diminish someone else's portion. IT IS WRITTEN that I am joint heir with Christ—not 'lesser heir' or 'backup heir.' I have the SAME access, the SAME covenant, the SAME barak blessing as Abraham who was called God's friend. I am daughter, not beggar. I receive boldly, knowing my Father's resources are INFINITE. His ability to heal me and every suffering person simultaneously is effortless to Him.
Your Father isn't running a triage center rationing healing to the most deserving. When Jesus fed 5,000, everyone ate 'as much as they wanted' and there were LEFTOVERS—His supply exceeds ALL demand. Ask boldly, daughter. There's MORE than enough.