"Wanting financial abundance at my age is selfish when others are struggling more than me."
How it sounds in your head: You've had your career. You made decent money. There are younger families barely making it, kids going hungry, missionaries scraping by. Who are you to ask for more when you're already comfortable? That's just greed dressed up as faith.
"The righteous shall flourish like a palm tree, he shall grow like a cedar in Lebanon. Those who are planted in the house of the LORD shall flourish in the courts of our God. They shall still bear fruit in old age; they shall be fresh and flourishing."
-- Psalm 92:12-14Religion teaches that holy poverty proves humility, making God's abundant provision seem selfish instead of covenant inheritance.
You've spent decades as the provider, measuring your worth by how much you sacrifice for others. Watching friends downsize and penny-pinch in retirement makes abundance feel tone-deaf. The voice of the older brother says those who've 'earned it' through hardship deserve it more than you who've already been blessed.
Abraham was blessed in ALL things at age 140+ after a lifetime of God's provision. The blessing didn't decrease with age - Scripture says "the LORD had blessed Abraham in all things" in his final chapter, proving God's covenant abundance intensifies, not diminishes, in later years.
I REFUSE the lie that wanting abundance at my age is selfish greed. IT IS WRITTEN that the righteous shall STILL bear fruit in old age and be FRESH AND FLOURISHING. I am not drying up, shrinking back, or apologizing for my Father's generosity. IT IS WRITTEN that Christ redeemed me from the curse so the BLESSING OF ABRAHAM might come upon me - and that blessing has no expiration date, no age limit, no retirement clause. I am Abraham's seed, an heir according to the promise, and the barak that protected and prospered Abraham at 140 is mine by covenant through Jesus' blood. I receive without guilt what my Father runs to give.
Your Father isn't rationing blessings like Social Security checks, measuring who deserves what based on age and need. He's the Father who killed the fattened calf for the son who blew everything - and He's been preparing abundance for you not because you've earned it through decades of faithfulness, but because you're His son and He delights in your prosperity at every age.