"My intensity scares people away. I need to shrink myself to be loved."
How it sounds in your head: Every time I share what I'm really feeling, people look uncomfortable. My husband says I'm 'too emotional.' My friends stop texting when I need to process out loud. Maybe if I were calmer, quieter, less... me... people would stay.
"But if I say, 'I will not mention his word or speak anymore in his name,' his word is in my heart like a fire, a fire shut up in my bones. I am weary of holding it in; indeed, I cannot."
-- Jeremiah 20:9Enemy + world: Weaponizing your design to silence the prophetic voice God gave you.
You've watched people pull back when you express passion, seen eyes glaze over when you need to talk through emotions, felt the sting of being told you're 'dramatic.' The world rewards contained women and punishes passionate ones.
She had five failed marriages and was living with a man - the town outcast who fetched water at noon to avoid judgment. One encounter with Jesus and she RAN BACK to the ENTIRE CITY she'd been hiding from, so ON FIRE that the whole town came out to meet Him. Her intensity became her evangelism.
I REFUSE the lie that my intensity is a problem to manage. IT IS WRITTEN that God's word is FIRE in the bones of His messengers, and I will NOT dim what He ignited. I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, carrying HOLY FIRE, not worldly containment. The BARAK blessing of Abraham is mine - protected, favored, and AMPLIFIED in my covenant identity. IT IS WRITTEN that out of my belly flow rivers of LIVING WATER - and rivers are not quiet, controlled, or convenient. I am a daughter of the BURNING BUSH God - aflame but never consumed. My passion is my PULPIT.
The Father is NOT waiting for you to calm down - He's fanning your flame HIGHER. He's running toward you with more OIL for your fire, more WIND for your voice, celebrating the BLAZE He designed you to be before the world tried to extinguish it.