"My existence disrupted God's plan; I was born outside His timing or will."
How it sounds in your head: Your parents weren't married. They weren't believers. They were teenagers, addicts, or in rebellion. How can you be part of God's plan when everything about your conception was outside His design? You're a beautiful tragedy, but still a tragedy.
"And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose."
-- Romans 8:28Source: Religion teaching that God's plan is so fragile that human sin can derail it, making her believe she's outside divine intention.
The circumstances were objectively outside God's design for sex and family—sin was clearly involved. She struggles to reconcile how God could want her when the process that created her violated His commands.
Obed was born to Ruth the Moabite—a race BANNED from entering God's assembly forever (Deuteronomy 23:3), through a kinsman-redeemer marriage that looked like legal maneuvering. This 'outside the plan' baby became King David's grandfather and is listed in Jesus' lineage—the banned-race baby became the MESSIANIC line.
I REFUSE the lie that I was born outside God's plan or disrupted His timing. IT IS WRITTEN that ALL things work together for good and I am called according to HIS purpose. The enemy says I'm a product of sin; God says I'm a product of SOVEREIGNTY. My conception circumstances don't override Heaven's decree. IT IS WRITTEN in Jeremiah 29:11 'I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you.' I am not the disruption; I am the PLAN. Even if I came from banned lineage, I stand in the Messianic line. I carry the barak blessing by COVENANT, not by conception circumstances.
The Father didn't look at the mess of your conception and scramble to make the best of it—He looked at eternity past and said 'THIS one, THIS time, THIS purpose.' Your parents' sin didn't surprise Him or stop Him.