"My enthusiasm ruins things for people who are more laid-back. I should match their energy."
How it sounds in your head: I get excited about stuff and everyone else is just 'meh.' I feel like I care too much when nobody else does. People say 'why are you so hyped?' like it's weird. Maybe I should just act bored like everyone else so I fit in.
"Not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord."
-- Romans 12:11Spirit of conformity trying to flatten your fire into lukewarm mediocrity before you ignite anything.
You're the only one jumping up when something cool happens while everyone else barely looks up from their phones. You've been mocked for being 'extra' or 'doing the most.' Your energy feels lonely in a room full of disinterest.
Josiah became king at 8 YEARS OLD and by his TEENAGE years was tearing down idols while everyone else worshiped them. He didn't match the culture's apathy—he BURNED with zeal for God and sparked a NATIONAL REVIVAL.
I REFUSE the lie that my enthusiasm ruins things. IT IS WRITTEN to be FERVENT in spirit—not lukewarm, not 'chill,' but ON FIRE. My excitement is from the Holy Spirit, and the enemy wants it extinguished. IT IS WRITTEN that God would rather I be hot or cold than lukewarm—my fire is what He WANTS. The BARAK blessing means I am blessed in everything I set my heart to—and I set my heart to things FULLY. I don't dim my fire to match a dark room. I BURN brighter until the room catches flame.
The Father doesn't want you calm—He wants you ABLAZE. He's not embarrassed by your enthusiasm; He's the one who LIT THE MATCH. He's saying 'FINALLY—someone who cares as much as I do.'