"I've read too much theology and lost the simple, childlike faith I used to have."
How it sounds in your head: I used to feel God so easily—now every prayer feels like a theological debate in my head. I've analyzed worship songs until they're empty. Maybe knowing too much ruins intimacy with God.
"Let us know, let us pursue the knowledge of the LORD. His going forth is established as the morning; He will come to us like the rain, like the latter and former rain to the earth."
-- Hosea 6:3Source: False dichotomy between knowing God and knowing ABOUT God, as if intimacy and intellect are enemies.
The more she learns, the more self-conscious her faith feels, like she's performing rather than connecting. She misses the days when belief felt effortless, before she knew about church history and hermeneutics.
Mary sat at Jesus' feet as a STUDENT, learning theology in a culture that forbade women from studying—and Jesus defended her choice as 'the good part.' Intimacy and learning weren't opposed; sitting at His feet WAS intimacy, proving that pursuing knowledge OF Him deepens connection WITH Him.
I REFUSE the lie that knowledge kills intimacy. IT IS WRITTEN to PURSUE the knowledge of the Lord, which means He WANTS me to know Him more deeply, not less. Childlike faith isn't ignorance; it's trust—and trust GROWS with knowing someone better, not worse. IT IS WRITTEN in Philippians 3:10 that Paul's deepest desire was to KNOW Him—not just feel Him, but KNOW Him. I stand in the BARAK blessing, a covenant that holds me even when feelings fade. My theology isn't a barrier; it's a deeper foundation for the intimacy He's building.
The Father isn't mourning your lost naivety—He's celebrating that you're pursuing Him with your WHOLE heart, mind included. He's not waiting for you to dumb it down; He's inviting you to know Him in fullness, and that's a richer intimacy than what you left behind.