"I've had multiple abortions and I'm the one person whose past is actually too much for grace."
How it sounds in your head: Once could be a mistake. Twice is a pattern. Three times? You're a monster. You've ended multiple lives. If there's a line where grace runs out, you crossed it. You're the exception to 'come as you are.'
"This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief. However, for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life."
-- 1 Timothy 1:15-16Enemy using quantity of sin to disqualify from quality of grace, religion teaching sliding scale of forgiveness where some pasts are 'too much.'
Every sermon illustration uses 'even though' examples that seem smaller than yours. Multiple abortions sounds like the plot point where grace expires. If once is forgivable, multiple feels irredeemable.
Manasseh sacrificed his own sons in fire, practiced witchcraft, shed innocent blood until Jerusalem was filled with it—reigned evil for 55 years. When he humbled himself, God restored him immediately and gave him back his kingdom the same generation.
I REFUSE the lie that multiple abortions disqualify me from grace. IT IS WRITTEN that Jesus came to save the CHIEF of sinners and make them patterns of His longsuffering. My quantity of sin only magnifies the quantity of His grace. IT IS WRITTEN in Romans 5:20 that where sin abounded, grace abounded MUCH MORE. The BARAK covered Jacob through repeated deception and Judah through sexual immorality—multiple failures don't void covenant. I am not the exception to grace; I am the trophy of it. The Father runs toward me, not away.
The Father doesn't have a three-strike policy. His grace isn't a limited resource that runs out at multiple offenses. He's already prepared complete restoration, and the blood of Jesus doesn't cover sin by counting—it covers by covenant, and that's infinite.