"I'm too passionate about things others find trivial. My enthusiasm is embarrassing and over-the-top for everyone around me."
How it sounds in your head: You got excited about something and then saw their eyes glaze over. You shared something you care deeply about and got a 'that's nice' that felt like a dismissal. You've learned to downplay your excitement because full enthusiasm seems to make people uncomfortable. You're passionate about the 'wrong' things.
"Not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord."
-- Romans 12:11Enemy assignment to dampen the fire God placed in you, combined with a cynical culture that mocks enthusiasm and religious systems that confuse sobriety with godliness.
You've literally watched people's body language change when you express excitement. You've been teased for caring 'too much' about things others dismiss. The gap between what lights you up and what others care about feels embarrassingly wide.
David danced before the Lord with ALL his might, so passionately that his wife Michal despised him for it, calling him undignified and embarrassing. David's response? 'I will be even MORE undignified than this.' His unbridled passion didn't disqualify him—God called him a man after His own heart.
I REFUSE the lie that my passion is embarrassing or too much. IT IS WRITTEN in Romans 12:11 that I am commanded to be FERVENT in spirit—boiling, not lukewarm. God doesn't want me toned down; He wants me ON FIRE. My enthusiasm isn't a flaw; it's fuel for the assignments He's given me. IT IS WRITTEN in Revelation 3:16 that God vomits out the lukewarm—He PREFERS my heat. I am BARAK-blessed, and my passion releases blessing into every space I enter. I will not apologize for the fire God lit in me.
Your Father isn't embarrassed by your enthusiasm—He's the One who lit that fire in you and He's fanning the flames. He doesn't see you as over-the-top; He sees you as appropriately ON FIRE for a God who is Himself consuming fire.