"I'm too emotional and it's making everyone uncomfortable"
How it sounds in your head: You cry at everything now. People don't know what to do with your tears at doctor's offices, at church, when memories surface. You need to get it together and stop making scenes.
"You number my wanderings; put my tears in Your bottle; are they not in Your book?"
-- Psalm 56:8Religious spirit - teaching that emotional control equals spiritual maturity, when God designed tears as sacred language
You see people look away when you cry. Your emotions feel closer to the surface than ever, and you remember being stronger, more composed. Now grief, joy, and memory all spill over unexpectedly.
Hannah wept so bitterly in the temple that the priest accused her of being drunk. Her grief was so intense she couldn't speak, only mouth words. God heard her silent, tear-soaked prayer and gave her Samuel - and she became the mother of Israel's greatest prophet.
I REFUSE the lie that my emotions are too much. IT IS WRITTEN: God puts my tears in His bottle. Every tear is sacred to Him, recorded, treasured. I am not too emotional - I am deeply feeling, deeply alive, deeply connected to the heart of God who weeps with those who weep. IT IS WRITTEN: He is near to the brokenhearted. My tears are a language God understands perfectly. I am under the BARAK blessing, and my emotional depth is a gift, not a flaw.
Your Father is running toward you with tissues in hand, sitting with you in every tear, whispering 'Let it out - I'm here.' He's not uncomfortable with your emotions; He's honored you trust Him with them.