"I should have known better than to invest in that"
How it sounds in your head: You pride yourself on being smart and providing well. This was a stupid mistake. A younger man might be excused, but at your age and experience? Inexcusable. Your family trusted you and you failed them.
"For a righteous man may fall seven times and rise again, but the wicked shall fall by calamity."
-- Proverbs 24:16Religion's lie that blessing requires perfect wisdom and mistakes disqualify you from provision.
The warning signs seem obvious in hindsight, and other men your age avoided this trap. Your identity as provider and protector feels shattered by what looks like preventable failure.
Abraham made a foolish, fear-based decision to lie about Sarah being his sister, a choice that could have destroyed everything. Instead, God plagued Pharaoh to protect Abraham the liar, and he left Egypt RICHER than he entered, loaded with livestock, silver and gold.
I REFUSE the lie that my mistakes disqualify me from the BARAK blessing. IT IS WRITTEN that a righteous man falls seven times and RISES AGAIN. My righteousness is a GIFT, not an achievement based on perfect decisions. Abraham lied twice and grew wealthier both times because the blessing wasn't based on his wisdom. IT IS WRITTEN that I am blessed coming in and going out, that the Lord COMMANDS blessing on my storehouses regardless of my investment IQ. I am the seed of Abraham, and the covenant blessing protects me even in my mistakes.
Your Father doesn't measure your worth by your portfolio performance. He's the Father who blessed Abraham's bad decisions, who turned Jacob's trickery into wealth, who lets His sun shine and rain fall on those who make perfect choices AND those who don't—because covenant isn't based on human wisdom.