"I should be grateful for small mercies and not expect God to actually heal me"
How it sounds in your head: You've learned to lower expectations, to be thankful for what you have, to not ask for too much. Healing feels greedy, presumptuous—like asking for more than your share. Better to accept your lot, be grateful for small improvements, and not bother God with impossible requests.
"Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us."
-- Ephesians 3:20Religion: God's goodness limited; expectation framed as presumption rather than faith accessing covenant promises.
Years of unanswered prayer have taught you to temper hope. Settling for 'good enough' feels humble and realistic. Expecting miracles feels like setting yourself up for disappointment, even arrogance.
Blind beggar—people told him to be quiet, to settle down, to not bother Jesus. He REFUSED to lower his expectation, shouting LOUDER: 'Jesus, Son of David, have MERCY on me!' Jesus stopped, called him over, and asked, 'What do you want?' Bartimaeus didn't say, 'Just a little help getting by.' He said, 'I want to SEE.' And IMMEDIATELY he received his sight.
I REFUSE the lie that expecting healing is presumptuous. IT IS WRITTEN: God is able to do EXCEEDINGLY ABUNDANTLY above all I ask or think. My bold requests don't offend Him; they POSITION me to receive His abundant nature. I will not shrink my expectations to match my disappointments. Healing is my covenant right through the BARAK blessing of Abraham, which I inherited through Christ. IT IS WRITTEN: By His stripes I WAS healed. That's legal reality. I will ask BIG, believe BIG, and expect BIG—not because I'm arrogant but because HE is GENEROUS. I am grateful for what I have AND expectant for more, because His goodness has no ceiling. I will cry out like Bartimaeus, refusing to be silenced, because my Father LOVES audacious faith.
The Father isn't rolling His eyes at your big requests—He's DELIGHTED by your audacity to believe He's as good as He says He is. He's not offended by your expectation; He's ACTIVATED by it. Ask BIG. He specializes in EXCEEDING.