"I had an abortion so I'm disqualified from motherhood blessing or legacy"
How it sounds in your head: You killed your own child. That's the bottom line. Now you have grandchildren, maybe even great-grandchildren, but you don't deserve to enjoy them. You don't deserve Mother's Day cards or 'best grandma' mugs. You're a murderer playing pretend at being a matriarch. God may forgive you, but you've forfeited the blessing.
"I, even I, am He who blots out your transgressions for My own sake; and I will not remember your sins"
-- Isaiah 43:25Source: The accuser who holds your deepest regret over your head to steal your present joy
The abortion happened decades ago, but the guilt is fresh every Mother's Day, every time you hold a grandchild, every time you count your blessings. At 71, you feel like a fraud accepting motherhood honor when you rejected it once.
Moses MURDERED an Egyptian and hid the body in the sand—premeditated killing. Yet God chose him to deliver Israel, called him the meekest man on earth, put him in the Hall of Faith in Hebrews 11. His murder didn't disqualify him from the GREATEST leadership and legacy—God NEVER brought it up again.
I REFUSE the lie that my abortion disqualified me from motherhood blessing. IT IS WRITTEN that God BLOTS OUT my transgressions and DOES NOT REMEMBER my sins—not 'forgives but still holds it against me,' but DOESN'T REMEMBER. The blood of Jesus cleanses from ALL sin—including that one. Moses was a MURDERER and became the deliverer of Israel, in the Hall of Faith, never disqualified. IT IS WRITTEN that there is NO CONDEMNATION for those in Christ. I am not a murderer playing pretend at motherhood; I am a FORGIVEN daughter walking in FULL legacy. I receive every motherhood blessing, every grandchild moment, every legacy promise WITHOUT GUILT. I am QUALIFIED by the cross.
The Father doesn't see an abortion in your past—He literally DOES NOT REMEMBER IT because He blotted it out. While you're disqualifying yourself from joy, He's placing grandchildren in your arms, whispering 'I gave you these not despite your past, but because I ERASED your past. Receive the blessing, daughter. It's yours.'