"After all these years, I've seen too much hypocrisy in church to ever trust Christians again."
How it sounds in your head: You gave decades to that church. You served, you tithed, you showed up. Then the pastor had an affair, the board covered it up, and they asked YOU to leave for questioning it. You've buried friends who claimed faith but lived lies. The whole thing is a scam.
"It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man."
-- Psalm 118:8Source: Legitimate trauma weaponized by enemy to isolate you from God's family and cut off covenant connection.
You literally witnessed leaders you respected fall into sin while preaching holiness. The gap between Sunday performance and Monday reality in people you loved has been massive and undeniable.
Peter denied Jesus three times, cursing and swearing he didn't know Him—the ultimate hypocrisy after three years of ministry. Jesus didn't shame him or disqualify him; He restored him instantly with breakfast on the beach and commissioned him to feed His sheep.
I REFUSE the lie that church hurt disqualifies me from God's family. IT IS WRITTEN: 'It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man.' My faith was never in perfect people—it's in the Perfect Son. Those leaders failed, but Jesus NEVER did. IT IS WRITTEN: 'He who began a good work in me will complete it'—regardless of who drops the ball. I am Abraham's seed by covenant, blessed coming in and going out. The BARAK protects me even when others stumble. I choose connection over isolation, because the Vine never fails even when branches do.
Your Father sees every wound, every betrayal, every leader who let you down—and He's running toward you with the robe of belonging, not asking you to trust humans again, but inviting you to let HIM be your trust. He's been preparing the fattened calf while you've been gone, because your seat at His table was never based on anyone else's worthiness.