"Wanting nice things at my age is vain and selfish."
How it sounds in your head: I should be focused on heaven, not earthly comfort. Wanting a nice room, pretty clothes, or small luxuries feels shallow when death is close. Spiritual people don't care about material things.
"Command those who are rich in this present age not to be haughty, nor to trust in uncertain riches but in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy."
-- 1 Timothy 6:17Gnostic heresy that says matter is evil and spirit is good, contradicting God who called creation 'very good.'
Religious culture venerates elderly saints who 'don't need much,' and she's internalized that wanting beauty or comfort equals worldliness.
She received twelve months of beauty treatments - oils, perfumes, cosmetics - before meeting the king. God orchestrated extravagant pampering as PREPARATION for her destiny, not as distraction from it.
I REFUSE the lie that wanting beauty and comfort is vain. IT IS WRITTEN that God gives us richly ALL THINGS TO ENJOY. I am a daughter of the King, and He delights in giving good gifts. The BARAK blessing includes fatted calves and finest wine, not ashes and sackcloth. IT IS WRITTEN: I am blessed in my storehouses, and the Lord takes pleasure in the prosperity of His servant. My Father celebrates me with a robe, ring, and party - even at 90. I receive beauty and comfort as love gifts.
Your Father doesn't want you in a beige room eating plain crackers to prove you're spiritual. He's the One who made peacocks and sunsets - He loves beauty and wants you wrapped in it.