"Taking meds for my bipolar disorder proves I'm not healed and my faith isn't working."
How it sounds in your head: I claimed my healing last year, but I still need these pills to stay stable. Does that mean I didn't really receive it? Am I lying about being healed?
"For indeed he was sick almost unto death; but God had mercy on him, and not only on him but on me also, lest I should have sorrow upon sorrow."
-- Philippians 2:27Source: religion - Word of Faith extremism that demands proof of healing through refusing treatment, making ongoing care seem like unbelief.
You made a faith declaration about being healed, but your mood still swings without medication. The disconnect between your confession and your current reality feels like failed faith.
Epaphroditus, Paul's ministry partner, got deathly ill doing God's work. Paul didn't rebuke his faith - he praised God's mercy when Epaphroditus recovered, showing that even Spirit-filled believers get sick and God's mercy includes recovery by any means.
I REFUSE the lie that medication means I'm not healed. IT IS WRITTEN that even Paul's ministry partner got deathly sick, and God's mercy brought recovery. My medication IS my healing - it's the tool God provides to keep my brain chemistry stable. IT IS WRITTEN that Christ redeemed me from the curse, which includes mental chaos and instability. I AM healed, and my healing is maintained through the wisdom God gave doctors. I will not throw away the very provision my Father sent because religion demands I prove something.
Your Father isn't waiting for you to throw away your meds to prove your faith - He's the One who PROVIDED them! He's running toward you with both the prescription refill AND the supernatural stabilizing, because He wants you STABLE and WHOLE, not performing faith stunts that end in crisis.