"My mental health issues make me too difficult to be close to long-term."
How it sounds in your head: You've watched people try and then fade when the anxiety, depression, or whatever you're dealing with becomes real instead of theoretical. They signed up for a friend, not a project. Eventually, everyone gets tired of managing your struggles.
"And He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me."
-- 2 Corinthians 12:9Enemy stigma-lie weaponizing mental health to isolate you from the connection that would actually help heal.
You've literally watched relationships change once your mental health struggles became visible. People get compassion fatigue. You feel like a burden, and the evidence suggests you might be right.
Elijah hit severe depression, prayed to die, collapsed under a tree. God didn't rebuke him or distance Himself—He sent an angel with food, let him sleep, fed him again, and then gave him his next assignment. Ministered to in the pit, not after climbing out.
I REFUSE the lie that my mental health makes me too difficult to love. IT IS WRITTEN that God's strength is made perfect in weakness—my struggles are where His power shows up, not where relationships end. I am NOT a burden; I'm HUMAN, and Jesus Himself experienced anxiety in Gethsemane. IT IS WRITTEN that there is NO condemnation for me in Christ—not for my brain chemistry, not for my struggles. The Father didn't wait for the prodigal to stop smelling like pigs before embracing him. I don't have to be mentally 'fixed' to be fully loved RIGHT NOW. The BARAK blessing covers me completely, mental health and all.
Your Father didn't wait for Elijah to get out of depression before showing up. He fed him in the pit, let him rest, and stayed close. He's not waiting for you to 'get better' before He comes close—He's already there, in the struggle, with food and rest and presence.