"I've rejected God's call so many times that He's given up on using me."
How it sounds in your head: I felt God asking me to do something or say something and I chickened out. It's happened multiple times. I think I've missed my chance and God has moved on to someone else.
"For the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable."
-- Romans 11:29Source: Religious teaching that God's calling has expiration dates and limited opportunities instead of the relentless pursuing love of the Father.
You've felt promptings and ignored them out of fear or embarrassment. Each missed opportunity feels like you're disappointing God until He finally writes you off as unreliable.
God called Jonah to Nineveh and Jonah literally ran the opposite direction on a ship, got thrown overboard, swallowed by a fish. God gave him the same assignment again and still used him to save an entire city - no punishment, no probation.
I REFUSE the lie that I've missed my chance with God. IT IS WRITTEN that the gifts and calling of God are IRREVOCABLE - He doesn't take them back based on my fear or failures. Jonah ran away and God still used him. Peter denied Jesus and became the foundation of the church. IT IS WRITTEN that His purpose will stand and He will do all His pleasure. The BARAK blessing called Abraham even when he was a pagan in Ur. My calling doesn't depend on my perfect timing - it depends on His perfect nature. I am called. I am chosen. I am equipped.
The Father doesn't cross you off His list when you hesitate - He's the God of the second chance, the third chance, the seven-hundredth chance. He's pursuing you with the same call today He had for you before you were born.