"I've let God down too many times and He's given up on me"
How it sounds in your head: I keep messing up the same ways. I promise God I'll do better and then I don't. I can feel Him getting tired of me. There's only so many chances before He gives up, and I think I've used them all.
"Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
-- Lamentations 3:22-23Source: Religious teaching that God's patience has limits, like an exasperated parent counting to three.
She applies her experience with frustrated adults to God, assuming He has the same breaking point. Her repeated struggles feel like evidence that she's exhausted His grace.
Peter denied Jesus three times, with CURSES, while Jesus was being arrested. After the resurrection, Jesus didn't make him grovel - He made him breakfast on the beach and INSTANTLY restored him to ministry, asking him three times about love to heal the three denials.
I REFUSE the lie that God has given up on me! IT IS WRITTEN that His compassions NEVER FAIL and are NEW EVERY MORNING! I cannot exhaust what is INFINITE! Peter denied Jesus three times with curses, and Jesus made him BREAKFAST and restored him INSTANTLY! IT IS WRITTEN in John 6:37 - 'Whoever comes to Me I will NEVER cast out!' Not 'unless you've come too many times.' NEVER means NEVER! I stand in the BARAK blessing - the same covenant that protected Abraham when he LIED TWICE and still left richer! God's commitment to me is based on HIS NATURE, not my track record!
While you're lying in bed thinking you've failed again, the Father is already preparing tomorrow's fresh supply of mercy. He doesn't count your stumbles - He counts you as RIGHTEOUS because of Jesus, and that never changes no matter how many times you fall.