"I've been too emotional my whole life. My sensitivity is a weakness God should have corrected."
How it sounds in your head: People always said I was 'too sensitive,' that I cried too easily, felt too deeply. Even in church, tears during worship meant I was 'being emotional' instead of spiritual. At eighty-five, I still wonder if God gave me defective feelings, if I should have been stronger, less affected by everything.
"Jesus wept."
-- John 11:35World and religion value stoicism over sensitivity, labeling deep feelers as 'weak' or 'overly emotional,' especially women.
She's been told her whole life to 'toughen up' and 'stop crying so much.' After eight decades of apologizing for tears, she believes her emotional wiring is flawed.
Called 'the weeping prophet,' Jeremiah cried constantly over his nation's condition. God didn't rebuke his tears or tell him to be stronger—He CHOSE this tender-hearted man to speak His words because his emotions reflected God's own grieving heart.
I REFUSE the lie that my emotional depth is a design flaw. IT IS WRITTEN that JESUS WEPT, fully God and unashamed of His tears. My sensitivity has allowed me to weep with those who weep, to feel the pain others glossed over, to carry the burdens religion ignored. IT IS WRITTEN that God keeps my tears in a bottle because He TREASURES every feeling I thought was too much. I am not 'overly emotional'—I am made in the image of a FEELING God who loves, grieves, rejoices, and aches alongside His children. My tears have watered gardens of compassion others never saw. I am COMPLETE, not defective.
The Father is running toward you whispering, 'Every tear you shed has reflected MY heart. Your sensitivity has been My gift to a cold world.' He's not asking you to cry less—He's bottling every tear like a priceless treasure.