"I'll have to choose between a godly man and chemistry. I can't have both."
How it sounds in your head: The guys you're attracted to aren't spiritually mature. The spiritually mature guys feel like brothers, no spark. You're told attraction grows but you wonder if you're supposed to marry someone you're not excited about.
"I am my beloved's, and his desire is toward me."
-- Song of Solomon 7:10Religion + worldly false dichotomy - sanctification divorced from desire, holiness opposed to passion.
Your experience shows godly men who feel SAFE but not exciting, or exciting men who aren't godly. You've never met both in one person and you're starting to think it's a fairytale invented by worship songs.
Jacob saw Rachel and was so ATTRACTED he worked 7 YEARS for her, and the Bible says it 'seemed only a few days to him because of the love he had for her.' Godly man, INTENSE chemistry, worked 14 years total and never regretted it.
I REFUSE the lie that I must choose between godly and attracted, that chemistry opposes holiness. IT IS WRITTEN that I am my beloved's and his DESIRE is toward me—God created attraction and passion as GOOD. I am Abraham's seed, and the BARAK blessing that gave Jacob a woman he'd work 14 years for out of LOVE is MINE by covenant. IT IS WRITTEN in James 1:17 that EVERY good and perfect gift comes from the Father—that includes a man who is BOTH spiritually on fire AND makes my heart skip. I will not settle for half. I receive the FULLNESS—chemistry AND character, passion AND purpose. Divine connections combining BOTH are manifesting NOW.
Your Father didn't write Song of Solomon to tease you—He wrote it to show you HOLY DESIRE is possible, beautiful, and HIS IDEA. While religion says pick one, your Father is preparing a man who will pursue you spiritually AND physically, leading you to BOTH deeper intimacy with God and electric connection with him.