"If I was really walking with God, I wouldn't be this broke."
How it sounds in your head: Righteous people prosper, right? Your bank account is proof you're doing something wrong spiritually. If you prayed more, gave more, sinned less, God would open doors. Your poverty is evidence of spiritual failure.
"For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ, that though He was rich, yet for your sakes He became poor, that you through His poverty might become rich."
-- 2 Corinthians 8:9Source: Prosperity gospel in reverse - making financial struggle proof of God's displeasure, which contradicts grace.
Deuteronomy 28 says obedience brings blessing, so your lack must mean disobedience. Your Christian Instagram influencer friends seem blessed, so you must be the problem.
Lazarus was broke and sick his entire life, yet angels carried him to Abraham's side at death. His poverty wasn't evidence of God's displeasure - sometimes the righteous are poor and the wicked are rich in this age.
I REFUSE the lie that my bank account reflects my spiritual condition. IT IS WRITTEN that Jesus became poor so I could become rich - He already took poverty at the cross. My financial state doesn't indicate God's pleasure or displeasure with me. IT IS WRITTEN there is NO CONDEMNATION for those in Christ. I am the righteousness of God not because I prayed enough but because I'm IN CHRIST. Under the BARAK blessing, Abraham got richer after LYING. My provision is covenant-based, not conduct-based.
Your Father didn't wait for the prodigal to 'get right' before running to him. He restored everything while the son still smelled like pig pen - your breakthrough isn't waiting for you to clean up.