"If I die before my child returns, they'll be lost forever without my prayers."
How it sounds in your head: I feel like I'm the only thing standing between my child and hell. If I'm gone, who will pray? Who will intercede? The thought of dying with this unresolved is torture.
"Therefore He is also able to save to the uttermost those who come to God through Him, since He always lives to make intercession for them."
-- Hebrews 7:25Enemy assigns messianic responsibility to you, making salvation depend on your life instead of Jesus' finished work.
You've been the consistent prayer warrior, and at your age, death is a real consideration. The burden feels crushing because you believe it all depends on you.
Stephen prayed 'Lord, do not charge them with this sin' as they stoned him, then died. Saul stood approving - yet later became Paul the apostle. Stephen's death prayer was answered AFTER he died, proving intercession continues beyond the grave.
I REFUSE the lie that my child's salvation depends on my life. IT IS WRITTEN that Jesus ALWAYS LIVES to make intercession - He never stops, never dies, never quits. My prayers have been heard and are partnering with the eternal intercession of Jesus Himself. IT IS WRITTEN that He saves to the UTTERMOST. I release the false burden of being my child's savior. Jesus holds that role, and He's better at it than I ever was. The BARAK blessing covering my household is not dependent on my mortality but on God's eternal covenant.
Your prayers have already set eternity in motion for your child - they're partnered with Jesus' own intercession that never ends. If you step into glory tomorrow, the momentum of grace you've released continues because God's promises don't die when you do.