"I wasted my best years on the wrong people and wrong choices. It's too late for God's best."
How it sounds in your head: I spent my twenties and thirties on dead-end relationships, bad decisions, building someone else's dreams. Now I'm in my fifties and my time is gone. The good opportunities went to women who made better choices.
"So I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten, the crawling locust, the consuming locust, and the chewing locust, My great army which I sent among you."
-- Joel 2:25Enemy + World: Clock culture says prime time is over, but God's economy has NO EXPIRATION DATE.
Society screams that youth is everything for women. You see younger women getting opportunities while you're starting over, and it feels like punishment for your past. Your body reminds you daily that time has passed.
Spent 40 years as a prince, 40 years hiding in the desert after murdering someone. At age 80 - when most are retiring - God launched his GREATEST assignment: deliver an entire nation and write the Torah.
I REFUSE the lie that I wasted my best years and it's too late for God's best. IT IS WRITTEN that God will RESTORE the years the locust has eaten - not help me cope with loss, but RESTORE. Moses was 80 when God launched him into his greatest purpose. My fifties are not my sunset - they're my SUNRISE. IT IS WRITTEN there is NO CONDEMNATION in Christ - my past wrong choices don't disqualify me from present right blessings. I am BARAK blessed - the blessing doesn't age out or expire. God isn't giving me LEFTOVERS - He's giving me RESTORATION, DOUBLE HONOR, and the BEST WINE saved for NOW.
The Father isn't saying 'If only you'd come sooner.' He's saying 'You're RIGHT ON TIME' and throwing a party with the FATTENED CALF He's been saving for THIS moment. Your wilderness wasn't wasted - it was PREPARATION.