"I shouldn't exist—abortion would've been easier for everyone."
How it sounds in your head: You've done the math. Without you, mom finishes school, parents stay together, money isn't so tight. There's a specific alternate timeline where everyone's happier and you're not in it.
"You have granted me life and favor, and Your care has preserved my spirit."
-- Job 10:12Enemy suggesting non-existence would've been mercy, denying the imago dei and covenant purpose.
Every family problem has a before-you and after-you chapter. Pro-choice rhetoric says 'It would've been kinder'—and looking at the wreckage, part of you agrees. The world measures burden versus blessing, and you feel like the wrong answer.
Crippled as a baby when his nurse dropped him fleeing war, hidden in poverty, expecting execution as Saul's grandson. David SOUGHT him out, restored ALL Saul's land, gave him permanent place at the king's table—'You shall eat bread at my table ALWAYS' despite the limp, the trauma, the 'easier if he'd died' scenario.
I REFUSE the lie that my non-existence would've been kinder. IT IS WRITTEN God granted me life AND favor—my existence itself is the blessing, not the burden. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, not accidentally and regrettably born. IT IS WRITTEN I am blessed in my coming in and going out—the BARAK that protected Judah (conceived through deception with a prostitute) covers me regardless of conception circumstances. There is NO condemnation for those in Christ—not for being born, not for the timing, not for the cost. I am the Father's intentional, wanted, celebrated daughter.
The enemy calculates what you cost; the Father celebrates what you're worth. Before your mother knew, He was preparing your seat at the table. The robe wasn't Plan B—it was ready before the foundation of the world, with your name already stitched in.