"I should have been aborted; even my mother considered it."
How it sounds in your head: She told you. Maybe in anger, maybe in honesty. 'I almost didn't have you.' Those words loop in your mind like a rejected application—you were ALMOST erased. You survived by chance, not choice.
"For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well."
-- Psalm 139:13-14Source: Enemy using the revelation of near-abortion to convince her she's living on borrowed existence, always one decision away from erasure.
She knows she was almost aborted—her mother considered it, maybe even scheduled it. That knowledge makes her feel like a survivor of her own mother's doubt, living proof that she was ALMOST unwanted into non-existence.
Joash's grandmother Athaliah murdered all the royal heirs to seize the throne—he should have died with his brothers. His aunt grabbed him, hid him in the temple for six years while death searched for him, then he was INSTANTLY crowned king at seven—the one marked for death became the restorer of the covenant.
I REFUSE the lie that I should have been aborted or that I'm living on borrowed time. IT IS WRITTEN that God formed me and covered me in the womb—while death searched for me, DIVINE protection hid me. I was not a mistake that slipped through; I was a MUST-BE hidden by Heaven until my coronation. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, not barely tolerated. IT IS WRITTEN in Exodus 14:13 'The Lord will fight for you'—He fought for my existence before I could fight for myself. I carry the barak blessing. I am not the almost-erased; I am the CROWNED.
The Father didn't nervously hope you'd survive the abortion consideration—He hid you in His hands and laughed at the enemy's attempt. While death searched for you, He was preparing your crown.