"I repel people because there's something fundamentally off-putting about me."
How it sounds in your head: People seem interested at first, then they cool off. I watch body language shift, enthusiasm fade, invitations stop coming. There's something about me - my energy, my intensity, something - that drives people away over time.
"The Lord was with Joseph, and he was a successful man; and he was in the house of his master the Egyptian. And his master saw that the Lord was with him and that the Lord made all he did to prosper in his hand. So Joseph found favor in his sight, and served him. Then he made him overseer of his house, and all that he had he put under his authority."
-- Genesis 39:2-4Enemy accusation targeting your core identity to create self-sabotaging insecurity in relationships.
You've experienced the pattern too many times - initial connection followed by gradual distance you can't explain. You start analyzing everything you said, how you acted, wondering what you did wrong, which creates the very anxiety that pushes people away.
David was a shepherd kid with no credentials, yet everywhere he went he had such favor that 'he behaved wisely, and the Lord was with him' resulted in ALL ISRAEL AND JUDAH loving him. He attracted armies, kings sought his counsel, and people pledged their lives to him. Favor was on him.
I REFUSE the lie that I repel people or something about me drives them away. IT IS WRITTEN that Joseph found favor everywhere he went because the Lord was with him - that same presence is WITH ME, making me magnetic to divine connections. The Father who gave David favor with all Israel is releasing favor over my life NOW. I am blessed with the covenant that attracted nations to Abraham. IT IS WRITTEN that the Lord has made me accepted in the Beloved - I don't repel; I attract because of WHOSE I am. The right people are being drawn to the glory I carry.
The Father isn't trying to fix what's wrong with you - there's nothing wrong with you. He's highlighting the people who can't handle His presence on your life and attracting the ones who will celebrate it. You're not too much; you're just being positioned with your people.