"I read forbidden books on magic and poisoned my mind beyond renewal."
How it sounds in your head: I'm ninety-four and my mind was never the same after those books. I think the thoughts they planted are still growing like weeds seventy years later. Some pollution is permanent. Maybe my mind can't be fully renewed at this point.
"And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."
-- Romans 12:2Enemy lie that certain information creates irreversible mental contamination that God's renewing work can't reach or reverse.
She has intrusive thoughts and mental patterns she can't seem to shake, and the enemy provides the magic books as explanation rather than revealing these are common struggles or just the normal human mind that everyone battles to renew.
Apollos was 'eloquent and mighty in the Scriptures' but had been taught inaccurately - his mind was filled with wrong information about God. Aquila and Priscilla simply explained the way more accurately, and IMMEDIATELY he powerfully refuted opponents - proving wrong information doesn't permanently poison the mind; truth simply replaces it.
I REFUSE the lie that magic books poisoned my mind beyond renewal. IT IS WRITTEN: Romans 12:2 - I AM being transformed by the renewing of my mind, present tense, happening NOW. No book is stronger than the Holy Spirit's renewing power. IT IS WRITTEN: 2 Corinthians 10:5 - I cast down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ. Those old thoughts have NO AUTHORITY. My mind is being renewed, transformed, made completely new. The BARAK blessing gives me the mind of Christ - sharp, clear, and unpolluted.
Your Father watched you read those books and He never panicked that you'd consumed something too toxic for Him to cleanse. He's been renewing your mind every single day since, and at ninety-four, He's still transforming you - because His power isn't limited by your age or your history, only by your willingness to believe He's actually doing it.