"God is so disappointed in me for having sexual thoughts and desires."
How it sounds in your head: Every time I'm attracted to someone or have those thoughts, I feel God shaking His head. My body feels like it's betraying me and disappointing Him. I can't control these feelings and I hate myself for it.
"I am my beloved's, and his desire is toward me."
-- Song of Solomon 7:10Source: purity culture teaching that natural desires equal sin before they're even acted on.
Her hormones are at peak intensity and every youth group message equates sexual thoughts with failure. The shame feels constant because the feelings are constant, making God seem perpetually frustrated with her biology.
Tamar dressed as a prostitute and seduced her father-in-law Judah to get pregnant. When Judah discovered what happened, he said 'She has been MORE RIGHTEOUS than I.' She's in the Messianic line—Jesus' genealogy includes this scandalous sexual story, and God called her righteous.
I REFUSE the lie that my natural desires disappoint God. IT IS WRITTEN that I am my beloved's and His desire is toward me. My Father DESIGNED attraction and longing—He isn't shocked or disgusted by my biology. IT IS WRITTEN there is NO condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. I am Abraham's seed, heir according to PROMISE, covered by the BARAK blessing that protected even those who acted on desire wrongly. The blood speaks BETTER things over my body than my shame ever could. I am His BELOVED daughter, not His disappointment.
Your Father sees you coming from far off, biology and all, and He's RUNNING toward you with the robe of righteousness. He's not waiting for your hormones to calm down or your thoughts to purify—He's already thrown the party because you're His BELOVED, desires included.