"God is punishing me with infertility because of past sexual sin or abortion."
How it sounds in your head: You remember the abortion in your twenties, the partner before marriage, the choices you've repented of a thousand times. Now the empty nursery feels like cosmic justice—you killed a baby then, so God won't give you one now. It's only fair.
"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit."
-- Romans 8:1Source: Religious teaching that God punishes sin with withheld blessings, treating grace as conditional and the cross as insufficient for sexual sins.
The timeline correlation between past sexual choices and current infertility creates a cause-and-effect narrative your shame readily accepts. Religious voices have explicitly taught that abortion blocks future fertility as divine retribution.
Rahab was a professional prostitute in Jericho—her entire identity was sexual sin-for-hire. Yet God placed her in the MESSIANIC LINE. She married Salmon, bore Boaz, became great-grandmother to King David and direct ancestor of Jesus—her past completely redeemed, her womb eternally honored.
I REFUSE the lie that God is punishing my womb for past sin. IT IS WRITTEN there is NOW no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus, and I am IN Christ. The blood of Jesus covers abortion, covers sexual sin, covers every choice I've repented of and even those I've forgotten. God does not withhold children as punishment—that's Old Covenant thinking, and I am under GRACE. IT IS WRITTEN that if I am Christ's, I am Abraham's seed and heir according to PROMISE. My past is under the blood. My present is under blessing. My womb responds to grace, not guilt. I receive children as a gift of covenant love, not earned by purity but given by mercy.
The Father isn't counting your sexual past against you—He's the one who RAN to the prodigal who'd blown everything on prostitutes and threw him a party. Your abortion, your past partners, every regret—it's all under the blood, and He's ready to fill your arms with the babies religion said you forfeited.