"God is angry I'm struggling with bitterness toward family"
How it sounds in your head: Your kids don't visit enough. They put you in this facility. They're busy with their lives while you sit here alone. You know you should forgive, should be the sweet grandma, but the bitterness is real and you feel like God is disappointed in your ungrateful heart.
"As a father pities his children, So the LORD pities those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust."
-- Psalm 103:13-14Religion teaching that you must manufacture perfect emotions to please God, plus enemy accusing you for honest feelings.
You hear sermons about forgiveness and feel condemned because the hurt is still there. You compare yourself to women who seem sweet and patient, and your resentment feels like proof you're failing spiritually. Church culture says you should be 'above' these feelings by now.
Naomi was so bitter she changed her name to Mara (meaning 'bitter') and publicly declared that God had dealt bitterly with her. Yet God didn't reject her for her bitterness - He restored her through Ruth, gave her a grandson, and placed her in the Messianic line. God met her IN her bitterness, not after she overcame it.
I REFUSE the lie that God is angry at my bitterness. IT IS WRITTEN that He knows my frame and remembers I am dust, and He PITIES me like a father. My struggle with hurt feelings doesn't disqualify me from His love - it qualifies me for His COMPASSION. IT IS WRITTEN in Romans 8:1 there is NO condemnation for those in Christ, even when emotions are messy. The Father doesn't demand I manufacture perfect feelings; He invites me to bring my broken heart to Him. He's not disappointed - He's NEAR to me in this pain.
The Father isn't standing over you with arms crossed, waiting for you to get your emotions in order. He's sitting beside you in that assisted living room, holding your hand, letting you cry about the loneliness, absorbing your pain without a hint of condemnation.