"My mom considered abortion. I almost didn't exist. That means I'm barely tolerated, not actually wanted."
How it sounds in your head: She looked at the clinic. She thought about it. Even if she chose life, I'll always be the baby she ALMOST didn't have. How do I compete with the life she could've had without me?
"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations."
-- Jeremiah 1:5Source: Enemy weaponizing a moment of fear into a lifetime of rejection, making God's rescue look like human reluctance.
Maybe you found paperwork, overheard a conversation, or she told you in a moment of honesty. The fact that abortion was CONSIDERED feels like evidence that you were never really wanted—just grudgingly accepted.
Pharaoh ordered all Hebrew boys killed—Moses was marked for death by government decree. His mother hid him three months, then put him in a basket on a river (basically abortion by exposure). Instead, Pharaoh's daughter pulled him out and he was raised in the palace that tried to kill him.
I REFUSE the lie that I am barely tolerated because I almost wasn't born. IT IS WRITTEN that God knew me, sanctified me, and ordained me BEFORE I was even formed. The enemy tried to erase me through fear and crisis, but Heaven VETOED that plan. IT IS WRITTEN that no weapon formed against me shall prosper—including the one aimed at me before birth. I carry the BARAK blessing that protected Abraham's seed even through famine, war, and threat. I am not a reluctant choice; I am a RESCUED destiny. God didn't just allow my birth—He ORCHESTRATED it.
Your Father didn't wait to see if your mom would choose you—He was already standing at the clinic door with angels blocking the entrance. He protected you in the womb like He protected Moses in a basket, not because you earned it, but because you were HIS.