"My mistakes cost my family years they'll never get back."
How it sounds in your head: Your decisions affected more than you - your wife, your kids lived with the consequences of your failures. You took years from them. They deserved better and you can't give them those years back now.
"Showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments."
-- Exodus 20:6Enemy's generational consequence magnification - makes your failures bigger than God's grace.
Family members were objectively impacted by your choices. You remember their faces during hard times you caused. They lived through real consequences of your real mistakes.
Jacob's sons MURDERED an entire city - should have brought retaliation on the whole family. Instead, 'the terror of God was upon the cities around them' and they traveled safely. Family protected despite sons' atrocity.
I REFUSE the lie that my mistakes cost my family unredeemable years. IT IS WRITTEN that God shows mercy to thousands of generations - His mercy over my family outweighs my failures 250-to-1. They are not defined by my mistakes; they are covered by His grace. IT IS WRITTEN in Numbers 23:23 that no divination or enchantment can work against Jacob - and I am Abraham's seed. The BARAK over me extends to my household. My family is blessed coming in and going out. God is restoring to them the years the locust ate. They receive Joel 2:25 restoration NOW.
The Father wasn't tallying the impact of your failures on your family - He was covering them with mercy while covering you with grace. Your family's story is HIS story, not your mistakes' story.