"My fascination with occult symbols and aesthetics means I'm drawn to darkness forever."
How it sounds in your head: I used to think pentagrams and occult imagery were cool. I wore symbols without knowing what they meant. Now I'm afraid that attraction to dark aesthetics means something is spiritually wrong with me at a core level that won't change.
"For it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure."
-- Philippians 2:13Enemy: Accuser conflating aesthetic preference with spiritual identity, making cultural curiosity into evidence of unredeemable darkness.
Adolescent identity exploration often includes experimenting with 'dark' aesthetics (goth, emo, witchy fashion). She's been taught that attraction to certain imagery reveals spiritual condition. She doesn't yet understand that Jesus REDEEMS interests, and that cultural aesthetics don't define spiritual reality.
Mary had SEVEN demons cast out of her (deep demonic involvement, not casual). She went from demon-possessed to being the FIRST WITNESS of the resurrection, chosen by Jesus to announce His victory. Her past darkness became the backdrop for encountering the LIGHT - no lingering attraction to demons, complete transformation.
I REFUSE the lie that past attraction to occult aesthetics means I'm forever drawn to darkness. IT IS WRITTEN that God works in me both to WILL and to DO - He changes my desires from the inside. IT IS WRITTEN that I am LIGHT in the Lord, no longer darkness. My interests don't define my identity. Jesus REDEEMS what I'm drawn to. If I still appreciate certain aesthetics, He can make them TESTIMONIES instead of bondage. I am not defined by what I wore or what I thought was cool. I am defined by WHOSE I am. I am a child of LIGHT.
The Father isn't judging your Pinterest board or your old wardrobe. He's watching you discover who you REALLY are - and it's so much bigger than any aesthetic. He's not afraid of your past interests. He's redeeming them into a story of LIGHT overcoming darkness.