"I'm a fraud. I never really knew what I was doing—just got lucky."
How it sounds in your head: All those years teaching, leading, mothering—I was just winging it. They thought I was wise, but I was terrified inside. If they knew how clueless I really felt, they'd have found someone else. Any day now, the truth about me will come out.
"Not that we are sufficient of ourselves to think of anything as being from ourselves, but our sufficiency is from God."
-- 2 Corinthians 3:5Source: enemy—the accuser who retroactively invalidates every God-given assignment you walked through in His grace.
You remember every trembling moment, every prayer of desperation, every time you felt in over your head. The enemy replays those clips as evidence of fraud instead of evidence of dependence on God.
Called 'mighty warrior' while hiding in a winepress, feeling like the least in his family. God didn't wait for Gideon to feel qualified—He declared him victorious BEFORE the battle, and Gideon defeated 135,000 Midianites with 300 men.
I REFUSE the lie that I was a fraud all these years. IT IS WRITTEN: my sufficiency was NEVER from myself—it was from God! Every assignment I trembled through, He was carrying me. Every moment I felt inadequate was proof I was depending on the RIGHT source. IT IS WRITTEN: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me—not through my own competence! The BARAK blessing rested on Abraham the liar, Isaac the deceiver, Jacob the schemer—how much MORE on me, hidden in Christ! I was not faking it—I was ABIDING, and the Vine produced fruit through this branch. My life's work stands validated by HIS grace, not my performance.
The Father is smiling at every memory you call 'faking it'—He calls them 'partnership.' He's whispering, 'You think YOU did that? Beloved, that was US together—and it was beautiful.'