"I'll never own anything again; I'll die renting and relying on others' charity at this age."
How it sounds in your head: Home ownership is for people who didn't mess up. You lost it, and at 75 you're not getting approved for another mortgage. You'll spend your last years in someone else's property, dependent, with no equity to leave your kids. You're a financial charity case now.
"Delight yourself also in the LORD, and He shall give you the desires of your heart."
-- Psalm 37:4World: Making ownership the measure of dignity and success, weaponizing age and credit to declare you disqualified from ever recovering what was lost.
Banks don't give 30-year mortgages to 75-year-olds, and you don't have the income or credit for approval anyway. Every other widow your age owns her home outright. You're the one in the senior apartment, explaining why you don't have a house.
God promised him ALL the land he could see, yet Abraham owned NONE of it during his lifetime except a cave he bought to bury Sarah. He lived in tents as a sojourner, yet he was called the FRIEND OF GOD and blessed beyond measure - ownership wasn't the marker.
I REFUSE the lie that I'll die homeless and dependent because I lost what I had. IT IS WRITTEN that when I delight in the Lord, He GIVES me the desires of my heart - not based on my age, credit score, or mortgage approval. Abraham owned almost nothing in the promised land but was called blessed and the friend of God. My dignity is not in my property deed. IT IS WRITTEN that I am blessed in the city and blessed in the field, and that blessing doesn't require a title in my name. The BARAK covenant protected and PROVIDED for my forefathers in TENTS - provision isn't limited to ownership. If home ownership is God's will for me, He'll provide it SUPERNATURALLY, outside the system that says I'm too old or too broke.
The Father doesn't measure your dignity by your property deed - the prodigal lost EVERYTHING, including his inheritance rights, and the Father didn't make him a renter. He restored SONSHIP, and sons own the whole estate by identity, not transaction.