"I deserve to struggle financially because I was foolish with money for decades."
How it sounds in your head: You spent when you should have saved. You didn't invest wisely. You were impulsive, undisciplined. This financial pressure is what you earned. You made your bed, now lie in it.
"Then the lord of that servant was moved with compassion, and loosed him, and forgave him the debt."
-- Matthew 18:27Religion teaches reaping and sowing as punishment; world says you get what you deserve financially.
There's a clear cause-and-effect between your choices and your current situation. Financial advisors would say you're experiencing natural consequences.
He took his inheritance early, blew ALL of it on prostitutes and reckless living, ended up feeding pigs. When he came home still smelling like the pig pen, his father RAN to him, restored his authority, identity, and threw an immediate party with the fattened calf.
I REFUSE the lie that I deserve financial struggle because of past foolishness. IT IS WRITTEN that the master forgave a debt of 10,000 talents—BILLIONS—with no payment plan, no proving period, no suffering through consequences. The prodigal wasted everything and got a party within 15 minutes of coming home. I am Abraham's seed—the BARAK protected liars and deceivers, not because they earned it but because of COVENANT. IT IS WRITTEN: Christ redeemed me from the curse of poverty. I don't receive based on what I deserve—I receive based on what JESUS deserves. The blessing is mine NOW.
Your Father isn't calculating what you deserve—He cancelled that debt at the cross. He's not interested in making you pay for your financial foolishness; He's interested in showing you that the blessing was never about your wisdom, it was always about His son's blood.